Insecure

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I want to talk but it feels as if I have lost my words…
I am so very conscious about something unknown…
It seems if I say I miss you so very much…
I’ll end up missing you even further more…

I never had struggled before to say my heart out…
But now I feel so insecure that every time I fear to lose you…
I don’t want to do or say anything which you may not like…
I seriously don’t want to annoy you any more…

Help me come out of this state…
It feels as I’m going to lose my voice for sure…

14 Comments Add yours

  1. hastywords says:

    After writing my last blog post a few minutes ago…this made me cry!

    1. Neeraj Kumar says:

      I’m sorry but I’m in kind of this state.. clueless, insecure 😦

  2. Roshni says:

    I’m sorry about your situation…but I hope writing it out helps, even if you can’t speak it out! And then, this is something I truly believe in – When something bad happens, know that something happier is about to come your way.
    And this is for you (my way of trying to make you smile, I suppose): “Lekin raat ke baad hi tho savera hotha hain.” 🙂

    1. Neeraj Kumar says:

      You are absolutely right but sometimes you really don’t want the night to come even if it can lead to the most beautiful morning.. 😦

    2. Roshni says:

      Now, what do I say to that? Except..just try not to lose hope! 🙂 Even nights can be beautiful…when else can you see such an awesome sky?

    3. Neeraj Kumar says:

      Hmmm.. That’s something different.. I’m on counting the stars now 🙂 .. Thank you 🙂

  3. This is very, very touching. The emotions are very raw and that gives it power, and made me want to cry. I think it makes me recall the times in my own life when I felt like I was walking on egg shells. It’s not fun, but I’m hoping you’ll find your strength. I think writing about it will perhaps give you power over your own insecurities.

  4. soumyav says:

    everytime my heart beats,
    your name echoes in it,
    everymoment when Iam alone,
    ur thoughts are filled in it,
    for every dream that I had dreamt,
    my thoughts will always be alive,
    You may have turned your back,
    for any reason that is sad,
    I still wish you remian happy,
    for your smile is what,
    I wished to be….

    These thoughts came to my mind as I read urs…

    1. Neeraj Kumar says:

      Awww…These are really beautiful lines.. Thank you for sharing!

    2. soumyav says:

      ur post inspired to write them… 🙂

    3. Neeraj Kumar says:

      I’m glad to know that 🙂

    4. soumyav says:

      keep smiling! 🙂 …

    5. soumyav says:

      ur post inspired to write them… 🙂

  5. This is a great blog you have here

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