Moment to Die

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Standing near you that close
I was being restless every second
Inside I was dying
but I had to pretend
that I was calm
I was okay
but I was stupid
and I didn’t initiate,

I wanted to grab your waist
Wanted to roll fingers on your face
Every effort was a waste
But anyhow I wanted to taste
There was something stopping me
Not the crowd, not the place
There was something
and I was dying,

Watching those lovely buds
Rolling around
I was numb
I was senseless
Throat was dry
Brain went silent
Breath was coming in and out
Like I was alive for this only moment,

I tried turn down the urge
Tried put down the feelings
Every effort was a waste
‘Coz any how I wanted to taste
There was something stopping me
Not the crowd, not the place
There was something
and I was dying,

Looking at you that desperately
It was impossible
To hold my feelings
To control my senses
I tried changing my view
So that I don’t look at you
But your questions were playing tricks
Forcing me to look at your lips,

I wanted to hold you very tight
Even if it wasn’t right
Wanted to kiss you for hours
Without losing from my sight
Every emotion was a waste
But I still wanted to taste
There was something stopping me
Stopping me to dare
Reminding something
That I had to care,

I was frozen at one place
Maintaining a safe space
I didn’t want to lose the moment
Neither wanted to hurt your feelings
I had to accept the fact
Accept the reality
That you belong to someone else
And can never be mine..

18 Comments Add yours

  1. This actually kept me in suspense and touched my heart. Great work.

    1. Neeraj Kumar says:

      Thank you liking it!

    2. 🙂 thank you for sharing!

    3. Neeraj Kumar says:

      You are most welcome 🙂

  2. Prashant says:

    good one, oscillating between love, lust, passion and commitment !

  3. soumyav says:

    depth of feelings expressed very genuinely …

  4. drsuraiyanasim says:

    Very touching and beautiful….
    I thought it was something about unexpressed emotions but in the end i feel it was more about forbidden or lost love.

    1. Pieces says:

      Thank you for reading! Its indeed all non fiction!

    2. drsuraiyanasim says:

      …..and isn’t life always stranger than fiction?!?!
      We often underestimate life.

  5. Neeraj, Loved it!! What an excellent piece! It was beautifully written.

    1. Neeraj says:

      Thank you sweetheart! 🙂

    2. Welcome Sweetness!!!
      XOXO

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